Getting down with your bad self....

Getting down with your bad self…….

Recently in my life many things have changed, I am moving forward, settling down (somewhat) becoming more mature and taking on more responsibility (yayayaya). This is scaring the crap out of me; I never thought I would be able to handle all this. I was always the one who said they would never be this up tight such a workaholic and guess what I am. Sometimes I think it is important to let loose, escape, go away (I usually run away). I find myself wanting to do this more lately (maybe because I need a vacation) but I would like to escape to a time in my life when things were simpler. I think about some of the great memories of childhood (I was such a pain in the ass, ask someone who new me 15 years ago) that I have, hanging out with some of the greatest people I have known (you know who you are) and not having any drama or work or responsibility ohh the good old days. So every so often I have to “get down with my bad self” blow off some steam and maybe get in a little bit of trouble the good kind of course. But never the less I have to come back to earth, live my life, pick up where I am and join my life I have created for myself but every once in while I give myself a little break.

Sunrise....

Sunrise………..


The other day I was driving back to Miami from the west coast of Florida, (from visiting Holly from Canada yayaya Canada) and it was really early in the morning so I got to see the sunrise over the Everglades. It was amazing I have seen many sunrises from not sleeping very much and biking on the beach as much as I do all the time but it was different. There was so much fog as I got to the Everglades and you see the sun coming up slowly this hot, ball of fire and the fog burn away. It was so powerful and mighty and the fog just burnt away and a new day began. Maybe it was from sleep deprivation but it moved me tears and I just had to take some picture of it, which was completely unsafe because I was driving but I just had to and share it.

Free Bird......

Free Bird………

All of you must know the song by Lynyrd Skynyrd Free Bird. I love this song and not that I have a tattoo would love to get one though it would be the two words “free bird”. I live my life like the lyrics of the song, the part that is really how I feel most of the time is “and this bird you cannot change” I feel that is so representative of me because I feel, I cannot change not my inner self. The other free bird part at the end of the song I just think being a bird flying in the sky is just such an amazing feeling that I will never feel but aspire too.

If I leave here tomorrowWould you still remember me?For I must be traveling on, now'Cause there's too many placesI've got to seeBut, if I stayed here with you, girlThings just couldn't be the same'Cause I'm as free as a bird nowAnd this bird, you'll can not changeOh, oh, oh, oh, ohAnd the bird you cannot changeAnd this bird you cannot changeLord knows, I can?t changeBye, bye, baby it's been a sweet loveYeah, yeahThough this feeling I can't changeBut please don't take it so badly'Cause the Lord knowsI'm to blameBut, if I stayed here with you girlThings just couldn't be the same'Cause I'm as free as a bird nowAnd this bird, you'll can not changeOh, oh, oh, oh, ohAnd this bird you cannot changeAnd this bird you cannot changeLord knows, I can't changeLord help me, I can't changeLord I can't changeWon't you fly high, free bird, yeah?

Speech for Grandma

As manyof you know my grandmother was a very important part of my life. (she had so many great stories and moments that we shared) I wrote a speech for her unvailing memoral servcie this weekend and i just wanted to share it in her memory.

Grandma’s Speech



My grandmother has had a big impact in my life and even though she would not believe this if I told her she provided me with so many the important life lessons. She taught me the importance of kindness, the importance of presentation and valuing the small things.
Kindness can come in many ways and my grandmother always believed that one should take care of others before themselves. She truly enjoyed giving things away; always saying she didn’t need so much. She always made sure everyone had enough to eat or a little gift when she saw you and this always impressed me. She was never selfish and got a true charge out of giving rather then receiving.
Grandma always liked things to be neat a clean. She was particular about this and even after she passed away and I went through some of her things I could not believe the time she took to make everything nice and tidy. She never would allow you to see her unless she looked her best, ill never forget you always had to tell grandma you were stopping by other wise she would not open the door. This skill is something I have tried (sometimes not as successful as her) to keep in mind. And every day when I go to work I have the job of teaching students the best way to act or dress for career success. My grandma knew that presentation was important and the way people see you holds values.
Being a simple woman my grandmother always enjoyed the small things, I could not believe when I went through her papers recently that every card, note, and letter I sent her she saved. As we all know grandma was notorious for throwing things out but she kept all those simple things and they had so much value to her. She enjoyed a phone call or a short visit and when you bought her something she always wanted you take it back. I believe this is the most important lesson I have learned from her and from this I, too, every day, thank G-d for the small things.
I miss her very much. She was the source of so much laughter and smiles in my life. I hope she really knew which I am sure she did how much I loved her and continue to think about the wonderful, meaningful and long lasting influence she had in my life.